WOW. It’s been a while…

As the headline states, it has been a while my fellow and few followers. First things first, I hope you all are healthy, washing your hands, and keeping distant from one another as much as you mentally can handle.

Things have been easy on my end. Thankfully I am considered essential and still have work keeping me busy. I won’t sugarcoat it, I too wish I could stay home all day and just watch Netflix series, but I appreciate having a job and a paycheck still. Especially considering how many individuals and families are struggling through the month, wondering each day how they’re going to get by while out of work. Things aren’t great, but hang in there because we really are all in this together.

So quarantine life, well it is different, that’s for sure. The difference really has me wondering (as a writer and a reader) what kind of future is in store for us.

We’ve seen the dystopian films, we have read the novels, and we have examined the many series created under the premise of the world’s ending. Now this may not be some apocalyptic ending to Earth’s existence, but what it could be is the beginning stages of the collapse of modern civilization. This wouldn’t be the first time either.

The Roman empire has fallen before, the Mayans have been ruined in the past; civilization has a long history of its ups and downs. Although society has collapsed in the past, civilization as a whole has moved on and persevered through the hard times. Would it not be brilliantly ironic for mankind’s stature to finally fall under the stance of economic failure due to a SARS virus that has slowly and randomly attacked the immune system of many people, varying in age, race, and health? A disease with not patter as for who it will take out.

No, we don’t have our first annual purge coming forth and I am sure we are a long ways out from any televised manslaughter of underage children. Who knows though, maybe there are people with antibodies in their blood type, and first we must send them through a maze to ensure their compatible immunity. The complete divide of our world into different social classes may be a ways off though. And although Rainman may not be saving our lives from a fast acting, lethal virus, somebody out there must be trying to, right?

To think that after everything, all the imagination and creativity in the world, nobody was predictive enough to create a dystopia where people wore face masks and had to maintain a six foot distance from one another. Although that could be worked into a very great love story I bet. Like the film Five Feet Apart. I’ve never actually watched it, but I imagine Cole Sprouse and Haley Lu Richardson’s characters felt similar to how we’re all feeling now, minus the extra foot of spacing.

Maybe Idiocracy had it right, and this is our descend into the world’s dumbest era. Perhaps we have evolved so much that was have started devolving. Is it possible we’re reverting backwards from our development? We were having to tell people not to eat laundry detergent last year so I guess I shouldn’t be too surprised.

Still, what does this all mean for mankind. Will this all blow over in another month or are we truly facing a deadly disease that will affect man’s numbers in the way many plagues have done in the past? Is this something to be taken seriously? Have we doomed ourselves by not taking the necessary precautions sooner? Is this the beginning of the end, or just another chapter in the history books of the year 2030? Where is the line going to be drawn and have we already crossed it?

I don’t like the idea of thinking this is the end, frankly because it is similar to the ending of the Game of Thrones; hardly thought out and distasteful. Like c’mon God, you promised killing us all off by fire next time, not an invisible virus that may or may not affect us and may or may not kill us.

So I guess to wrap things up, here are a few pointers for those trying to stay safe and healthy out there. Although I may not be a doctor myself, I have family members in the line of healthcare and I am myself not a complete idiot.

DON’T TOUCH YOUR FACE. Unless you just scrubbed your hands cleaner than a whistle (are whistle’s really our standard of clean though?).

WEAR MASKS IN POTENTIALLY CROWDED/CONTAMINATED PLACES. Gloves are overkill and will not protect you. They offer a false sense of protection. When you wear gloves all day, you’re likely going to wash your hands less, touch your phone while wearing gloves, and the place the potentially contaminated phone DIRECTLY on your face The purpose of the mask is not only to keep your germs in place, but also to remind you not to touch your face.

WASH YOUR HANDS. This is the most critical part to your health. At least 30 seconds of washing with soap and hot water. Remember to scrub under your nails too!

STAY HOME IF YOU CAN. It is understood that a lot of people still have to work and that we want to live our lives still. So whenever possible, stay home, and remember to disenfect your house weekly if not daily depending on your household exposure.

Thanks again for reading. I hope you all are doing well and if you’re not, please reach out to someone. Even if it is me! As Zac Efron, Corbin Bleu, Vanessa Hudgens, and Ashley Tisdale put it, we’re all in this together, and it shows when we stand NOT hand in hand, but six feet apart.

Your Introvert Girl Next Door

What does it mean to be the girl next door? Who is she really? Is she the girl your bring home to meet your parents and start a family with? Or is she the woman you cheat on your wife with?

Sometimes I like to think that I could be that girl next door. Not saying that I want to either a) get married right now or b) break up a marriage ever. Still, with my artificially blonde hair, fake nails, and practically flawless smile, my appearance is apparently innocent. That is until my side profile projects my double nose piercing, and I roll up my sleeve to show an array of dark ink permanently stained into my skin. Put me in ripped jeans paired with a white t-shirt and now I’ve got that bad girl appearance.

The common theme I recognize amongst these kind of girls, of women, people like myslelf is that heartbreak circulates around us. Why is this though? Why are the effortlessly awesome people, such as us, so often being shattered and brought down by emotions?

Well, to put it simply is that we are just too good for relationships. I use the word “we” because I know that there are many females like me out there. Those headstrong, independent women who have tons of opportunity in the dating world, yet consistently remain single through the years. Let me tell you ladies that we are not the problem here, but in that same sense we are 100% the problem.

How is this so? Because we are seemingly perfect, and perfect girls need a perfect guy (or girl or however you want to see it, I get it we’re in the twenty-first century now, there is no exclusion).

Yes there are tons of great guys out there, but perfect won’t settle for great no matter how hard we try to. Which brings me to our dilemma as being the girls next door: we have made ourselves too good. Through a lifetime of overanalyzing and critiquing ourselves, we introverts have now transformed into the perfect combination of humbly attractive.

Guys like how we never speak too loudly or too softly, rather our voices are like cream in their black coffee. They like that we don’t need to go out to have a good time, but when they takes us for a night in the town we will show up looking like America’s Next Top Model. They like that we can play pretty and nice, yet when it comes to fun we know how to get down and dirty. I’m not talking sex I mean we like to go outside and ride on atv’s and play in the water and get too drunk and puke in front of them sometimes.

We are your girls next door and we are better yet known as the heartbreakers. You see, the problem with me personally does not reside in my looks nor my personality. I am a nice girl, a freaking awesome one at that. The issue is I just don’t know what I want.

So I’m trying to figure that out, which unfortunately means a lot of trial and error ending in heartbreak on my side, their side, and sometimes both sides.

Why do I keep trying though? I’m in my twenties and I haven’t even hit a year mark with the same person. Meanwhile all my friends are in serious relationships and are beginning to get married and have children. So are my family members and my exes. Sometimes I feel like I’m the only single person in the world, until someone walks up and starts hitting on me. Then I remember again why I am still single in this small town full of nobody quite interesting enough.

Yet here I am running around posing as some girl next door. She’s smiley, flirty, short, shy, and cute, but is she happy? Of course not, BUT she’s making it all work for the better every day. That’s close enough to being “happy” isn’t it?

Well we may not always be happy, but we will always have our goals. So why should we girls next door let these people take away from our direction? We need to follow our goals and say, “Screw relationships! I am going to be successful on my own first! I will work towards a marriage only after that!”

Yet…I still feel the want of someone’s touch and not just that of a stranger. I want memories together in our youth, and if I have to wait until I’m successful…well how long might that take?

This is how I end up heartbreaking others. I falsely devote myself to them for a period of time, never quite leading them down the direction of a serious relationship, and then I move states.

Alright I have only done that once before, but with how things are looking in my love life and also in my professional life I would not be surprised if it happens again.

So what do I want? Do I want a relationship or a successful career? And who’s to say that I cannot have both?

Finally I realize who has been saying that though, it has been me preaching myself to my own choir all this time. I am the one who seems to believe that the two cannot come together hand in hand.

What do you guys think? Can you become successful while also remaining devoted to a relationship? Or is it just not plausible?